25 very random notes about moi

1. people don't believe i used to be quiet and mousey, unless you haven't seen me since high school. if you haven't seen me since high school: you probably don't believe i'm no longer quiet and mousey, and i sometimes talk too much.

2. i've never learned to sew but wish i had, i both love and hate things that makes me appear 'domestic'.

3. i love hockey, i love all things hockey, i wish i learned to play and skate when i was younger. i never understood sports fanaticism until i started playing.

4. i make the best packaged ramen noodles of anyone i know.

5. i like really lame music. like r&b and michael bubble, and 80s ballads. it's only in the recent years that i've begun to listen to cooler music. Bloodhound Gang makes me laugh, and i like System of a Down.

6. i'm a lousy patient, i whine and complain a lot when i'm sick. i'll want my blankie and snuggling.

7. there are days where i crave nothing more than a chick flicks marathon and cuddling up on the couch with hot chocolate.

8. in recent years i've come to discover that i love the sci-fi genre. Firefly, Stargate, Battlestar Galatica, Torchwood. bad influence from my geeky friends.

9. i love to cook. i love to look at food pictures, and read food reviews, and watch the food channel and watch food being prepared. i have a gazillion cookbooks but probably have only made 5 recipes from them - total.

10. i've never owned a doll. of any type. no barbies or cabbage patch. and i find the collectible dolls scary. even before there was Chucky.

11. i detest high maintenance people. there is absolutely no room for 2 divas in my friendships and relationships.

12. my cupboards are filled with stuff that i won't ever get to use - i hoard food products. if there were ever a disaster i would be the last one on my block to have to be a cannibal. i have an unreasonable fear of being hungry and without food. i SAID it was unreasonable.

13. i have killed my pet turtles in the past by starvation. i am a bad person for this, and have tried to make up for the bad turtles karma ever since. i have been mercilessly taunted by friends about this in recent years - i consider this part of my cosmic karmic community service/payback.

14. i love star gazing in the countryside where all is dark and you feel the summer wind and the stars illuminate the night sky. i don't get to do this often enough.

15. i have no idea how to make a manicure last. my best record is 2 days without smudges, chips and scratches.

16. i drink coffee with a straw not because it's trendy or cool (like SATC) - but because i have ruined many a good sweaters dribbling and drooling without one.

17. i have fears that my family and friends don't know just how much i love them, and fears that i don't know how to communicate that enough.

18. i'm a food snob. i'm a bagel snob, almond croissant snob, baguette snob - everything tastes better in Montreal. but i'm learning to be more epicureanly tolerant.

19. i've zip-lined, rappelled, trapezeed, caved, rock climbed, rafted, skiied, snowboarded, skated, dragonboated, outriggered, snorkeled. there are many other adventurous things i'd love to try.

20. outside of north america, and hong kong, i've never travelled anywhere else - i plan to rectify this before i die.

21. i enjoy country line dancing more than i care to admit, the dancing which my mom has been taking lessons for at least 5 years. i am THAT fashionable & cool.

22. i enjoy sunsets and walks on the beaches and rainbows and puppies, much like the majority of prison immate penpal ads.

23. i seem to have a thing for men in power - Captain Jack Sparrows, Captain Patrick Marleau, Captrain Jack Harkness, Captain Malcolm Reynolds.

24. i have no problems eating foie gras even though i will almost always refuse to eat veal based on principles. i know that's oxymoronic, yes.

25. i will always be here when you need me, promise.

it's been 8+ years since i've started working and it's still like the first year - discovering that i can buy what i want when i want to is exhilirating!
however, i think randomly at times if i may be compensating with 'stuff' instead of things that matter... if my good vibes from a purchase or having gotten a 'deal' makes up for the lack of meaningful friendships and relationships in my life... kind of like a bandaid over a few gaps in life... a pretty Hello Kitty themed bandaid, but nevertheless a cover-up if you will...

in the interest of experiment (and proving i can do it) i'm going to try not to 'buy' anything except the essentials for a month. meaning meals and groceries, but no clothing, makeup... (of course i just spent some money at MAC's 25% off sale, so i'm getting a head start...) I wonder if i will find other fulfillments.

I'm reading my friend Birdy's log, and she writes very deep & insightful thoughts about life, emotions, friendships... and reminded me that once upon a time i kept diaries and journals and write daily on a blog. gone are those days and i want them back - they are witnesses to the happenings of my life and thoughts, however immature or mundane... it is nice to find your way back through your words and rediscover old feelings.

as i look FORWARD, i wonder what 2009 will hold. i'm still a bit too chicken to say what i mean most of the time. i know that's what i need to work on. in general 2008 was a good year. but i feel like life had frozen for a year and i hadn't advanced anywhere in terms of 'milestones'. not that it bothers me greatly... but it's nice to set some goals, just to know how far you've travelled and how far you have to go towards something.

i've read somewhere that the new year makes people realize that they have gotten older and inspired them to make resolutions (the majority of which can't be kept since these are more lifestyle changes and are a habit... apparently it takes 21 days for your body to establish a habit.)

anyways, i don't know what i was doing with the writing down my food intake. that's never going to work. i never finish a full meal, a tall latte or an entire chocolate bar, so it's hard to measure the amount of calories i intake every day.

next item on the agenda - i'm going to try to start the HABIT of writing more on this blog. so many times i'm like, i should write that down.. but i don't.
and then i wish i did so i can 'monitor my growth' and see how i feel at various points of my life.

ok so i have the iposture thing. i know it's gimmicky, but hey if it works then great! it's sort of a 'level' for you to set at a good 'posture'. then if you violate the posture for 60 seconds or more it'll send a mild buzz to remind you. then you sit up and it doesn't buzz anymore. i'm hoping the better posture will help with the shoulder pains.
also have been doing Pilates class with Nanci. i realized that i love it.. it's so low impact, but it's a variety so even if some exercises are hard, they are only 1 or 2 minutes of it before we switch. and there's such a variety of types of workouts, i don't like the "mens reformer" as much, and love the "jumping" workout - apparently you can jump lying down on a Pilates machine - AND it feels so free. Plus Nanci said ballerinas do this workout so they can master the legwork of multiple criss-crossing in the air before they really get in the air!

i've been trying to cook at home more. it costs so much to go eat out, and honestly i never finish meals so i have leftovers, which i don't end up eating because i'm eating out again the next day. trying to trim a bit of money. let's see how it goes.

since i've watched many times Gilmore Girls and Anne of Green Gables... so i figured it'll be in the mix of Amy's favorites to rewatch. Randomly i put in a disc and let it play on TV if i have no patience to watch an entire movie or episode of something new that requires following a story line. I do that to my favorite Maeve Binchy books too. i can grab any one of them and randomly open a page to continue to read - her stories are that rich and intertwined.

Been thinking about reading Twilight but it's been so hyped up i wonder would i be able to be unbias. haven't read many other books lately... but want to read more this year.